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Update
The update is that there is no update. My package could not be delivered on Monday, May 5th, but there's been no update since then.
The show is tomorrow.
Do I call the venue? Make a pest of myself? Are they going to refuse delivery based on not knowing about my plan to be kind to one of their performers? That the return address is unknown?
I never once thought of this possibility, that I could be rejected, directly or indirectly, by the venue. Getting that box back, marked in any way that it was not welcome, was never part of my plan. I don't know that my fragile psyche can handle this right now. ND can reject me, but he better do so directly, intentionally, so I know he means it. I don't do vague.
The show is tomorrow.
Do I call the venue? Make a pest of myself? Are they going to refuse delivery based on not knowing about my plan to be kind to one of their performers? That the return address is unknown?
I never once thought of this possibility, that I could be rejected, directly or indirectly, by the venue. Getting that box back, marked in any way that it was not welcome, was never part of my plan. I don't know that my fragile psyche can handle this right now. ND can reject me, but he better do so directly, intentionally, so I know he means it. I don't do vague.