the long road gets longer

i realized at lunch today that i'd mis-calculated a few things, and ommited a few others in my personal budget, and will have to cut my savings by more than i want. i don't know why i'm so upset about that. i don't have to cut out savings entirely, i just have to scale it back some. i should be thrilled that i'm able to save at all, given my affinity for retail therapy and my previous problem with credid card debt.

i guess it's the realization that i am the ONLY source of income, and if i'm gonna be able to retire, it's up to me to do something about it that makes me so determined. Yes, dad's given me some money from the various sources since mom's death, but i can't count on that, and don't like the lectures that come with it.

Sometimes i wonder if being so responsible is worth it...