Sign O' The Times
Sep. 6th, 2023 03:21 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
just_cydIs it possible to crave live music? I think I'm craving live music. I've been upping the volume on my phone a bit more, and using the headphones when I can for a more visceral experience. Today I required the rockin' out playlists that contained neither Darren Jessee nor Athenaeum, the two bands I've been bingeing lately.
I'm also on the cusp of snapping. Again. and it's a chicken-or-egg thing knowing that my planned time off begins at 2:31pm tomorrow. Am I losing my mind because I know the break is coming? Or is the break coming because I'm about to lose my mind? both? probably both.
Beginning Friday, and for the entirety of next week, I'm off work. and it's a relief. Sad I'm not traveling, but boy howdy do I need a break. I'm bitchy as all get-out. i'm snapping at people. stupid people have gotten WAY stupider in the last few weeks, and my tolerance of them is rapidly evaporating. trying to keep my snark in check is becoming an aerobic activity, as is the incessant coughing.
Sleep eludes me again, and pain is more active and present. the last two nights have found me on the couch where it's cooler, and perhaps less painful? I'm not sure. I do know I'm ridiculously overdue for flipping/rotating the mattress on my bed. We hauled it up there in May of 2020, about six months post-wreck, and i haven't moved it since. Not sure I can manage on my own, the thing is so heavy. And while I do blush at the thought of having several strong men in my bedroom, my house is such a state that there's no way in hell that's happening unless i'm being removed by force. Cooler days are coming; maybe tonight I'll try dropping the thermostat a couple degrees to see if I can get the upstairs closer to 75 than 80?
As for the pain ... sigh. yeah, I'm eating crap. I suspect the carb-heavy comfort foods aren't helping, but I'm working with what's on hand right now. It's awful to feel such pain just trying to move my legs around at my desk (bent to straight to elevated to not), or walking around the house, or, worst of all, climbing stairs. Some days I wish I could move to a single-story place, but the perfect storm of my pathetic income and insane housing costs has pretty much squashed that. These single-floor apartments with garages are near my current place, and similar in size, but good Maude, they cost more than I make!! I have 2br/2.5ba 1 car garage, about 1450 sf, and my mortgage is 1/3 or less. even with the condo dues. A few condos I've looked at have $300/mo dues, on top of whatever the payment would be. How is anyone supposed to live?!
I'm also on the cusp of snapping. Again. and it's a chicken-or-egg thing knowing that my planned time off begins at 2:31pm tomorrow. Am I losing my mind because I know the break is coming? Or is the break coming because I'm about to lose my mind? both? probably both.
Beginning Friday, and for the entirety of next week, I'm off work. and it's a relief. Sad I'm not traveling, but boy howdy do I need a break. I'm bitchy as all get-out. i'm snapping at people. stupid people have gotten WAY stupider in the last few weeks, and my tolerance of them is rapidly evaporating. trying to keep my snark in check is becoming an aerobic activity, as is the incessant coughing.
Sleep eludes me again, and pain is more active and present. the last two nights have found me on the couch where it's cooler, and perhaps less painful? I'm not sure. I do know I'm ridiculously overdue for flipping/rotating the mattress on my bed. We hauled it up there in May of 2020, about six months post-wreck, and i haven't moved it since. Not sure I can manage on my own, the thing is so heavy. And while I do blush at the thought of having several strong men in my bedroom, my house is such a state that there's no way in hell that's happening unless i'm being removed by force. Cooler days are coming; maybe tonight I'll try dropping the thermostat a couple degrees to see if I can get the upstairs closer to 75 than 80?
As for the pain ... sigh. yeah, I'm eating crap. I suspect the carb-heavy comfort foods aren't helping, but I'm working with what's on hand right now. It's awful to feel such pain just trying to move my legs around at my desk (bent to straight to elevated to not), or walking around the house, or, worst of all, climbing stairs. Some days I wish I could move to a single-story place, but the perfect storm of my pathetic income and insane housing costs has pretty much squashed that. These single-floor apartments with garages are near my current place, and similar in size, but good Maude, they cost more than I make!! I have 2br/2.5ba 1 car garage, about 1450 sf, and my mortgage is 1/3 or less. even with the condo dues. A few condos I've looked at have $300/mo dues, on top of whatever the payment would be. How is anyone supposed to live?!
