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just_cydThe update is that there is no update. My package could not be delivered on Monday, May 5th, but there's been no update since then.
The show is tomorrow.
Do I call the venue? Make a pest of myself? Are they going to refuse delivery based on not knowing about my plan to be kind to one of their performers? That the return address is unknown?
I never once thought of this possibility, that I could be rejected, directly or indirectly, by the venue. Getting that box back, marked in any way that it was not welcome, was never part of my plan. I don't know that my fragile psyche can handle this right now. ND can reject me, but he better do so directly, intentionally, so I know he means it. I don't do vague.
The show is tomorrow.
Do I call the venue? Make a pest of myself? Are they going to refuse delivery based on not knowing about my plan to be kind to one of their performers? That the return address is unknown?
I never once thought of this possibility, that I could be rejected, directly or indirectly, by the venue. Getting that box back, marked in any way that it was not welcome, was never part of my plan. I don't know that my fragile psyche can handle this right now. ND can reject me, but he better do so directly, intentionally, so I know he means it. I don't do vague.
