Stupidity, enumerated

• gifted D a $55 bottle of local bourbon for his birthday (tomorrow)


• walked down the Atlantic City boardwalk alone, well after dark, from Showboat to Bally's Park Place, a few days after Labor Day.


• responded with "I'm fine, thanks" when I was very much NOT fine. Every damn time.


• "Add to cart"


• overlooked more red flags than a color guard competition


• gifted D a bottle of bourbon (and a book - the book worked out, actually)


• gifted ND that same book, with THE WORST POSSIBLE STORY marked for him to read.


• went searching for, and found, a frame for that photo


• peer pressure. every freaking time


• opened the wine. poured the wine. drank the wine.


• refused to admit the truth about Olive


• student loans


• Philadelphia, NYC, DC


• thought for sure THIS TIME would be different


• moved in with him after six weeks of dating


• skipped meds


• "subscribe"


• "I can change him!"


• "surely there's someone out there for me?"

692,640 minutes

11,544 hours
481 days
68 weeks and 5 days
131.78% of a common year (365 days)

until I outlive my mother.

But who's counting?

I am.