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Jeffrey Dean Foster and The Arrows with Florence Dore, Gas Hill Drinking Room, Winston-Salem, NC, Saturday, February 15

While I love making the most of my trips south, hotel hopping is not my favorite part. Alas, it is sometimes required to make the most of my trip, or in this case, when a second show presents itself and it makes sense to book the closer-to-home second-night show with a closer-to-home hotel. Which is how I found myself staying at a different Hanes Mall hotel off Silas Creek Parkway near the hospital in Winston-Salem (aka The Ben Folds Five song). It was a dreary drive in, and I had to kill time before hotel check-in, so, among other things, I drove to the venue to assess the parking situation, but not before I had a message from Foster himself, asking if I would kindly be is Mistress of Merch that night. His partner, J, was back stateside but still very sick, and wouldn't make the show that night. I agreed without hesitation, since it's a low-stakes gig that involves parking my butt in the back of the venue (on a stool!) and chatting up anyone who happened by. We've known each other 11 months at this point, but have grown close chatting after shows and between visits, and it pleases me to no end that he thinks enough of me to ask me to handle his merch and money.

Buried in my perpetually-half-packed suitcase I unearthed the JDF Angel Skull t-shirt, and decided to go for it, figuring the only more ridiculous thing I could wear would be the lowest-cut top and pushy-uppest bra in the arsenal. I was shaking off my earlier mood, and was full-on extrovert by the time I sauntered through the doors just minutes after they opened.

"Can you let Jeffrey know his Merch Bitch is here?" I beamed upon entering, and had at least three different people cracking up at this. When Jeffrey popped out from behind the scenes (actually the upper level of the Ramkat proper), I repeated my statement, to his distress, and let him know I was his bitch for the night. Pushing it? yeah, probably. I later told his partner J of this exchange and she thought it was hilarious. Always be on good terms with the other half.

I took some really bad photos and even worse video (still uploading). The crowd wasn't huge, but they were ALL IN, which is fantastic ... until you're trying to push merch on people who've known the band for decades. Florence was a treat, and talking with her husband, Will Rigby, turns out he's the drummer for The dBs, and had played in Dayton back in the late 70s "at some place in a parking garage?" Yup, I know the place: Gilly's. It's closed now, but was the OTHER musical institution in Dayton for years and years (the first being Canal Street Tavern, of course).

Florence has a book out, called The Ink in the Grooves: Conversations on Literature and Rock & Roll that sounds freaking amazing. oh, and she's a professor at UNC Chapel Hill.

Clearly, this is not a concert review. I was mentally bouncing all over the place, enjoying the music but not capable of retaining anything remotely pertinent to writing a review. I think we were all a little out of sorts, just three weeks into the new regime and reign of terror. "Fuck that guy," indeed.

Bonus: Gas Hill has an Art-o-Mat!

sigh. maybe i'll revisit this one? maybe I won't. it was a rough weekend. not as bad as that triple-header a couple weeks prior, but clearly, these are troubled times and I need to do something about it.
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Does the word "pal" have a different meaning based on age of the user? Where they were born & raised? Man to woman? He's called me that a couple times now. I'm trying so hard to NOT read more into it, reminding myself he's a Girl Dad, and I'm probably just another young woman for him to fret over, offering me a place to crash when roads are bad, lest he worry for my safety. But I'm not young - there can't be more than 10 years between us. Sure he played CBGB before i could drive, but who says he was old enough to drive either?

He talks of 2016, when his life and marriage fell apart amidst the shared sorrow of losing Bowie (and Rickman, and many more), and he had to keep it together for his daughter, peeling back the first of many layers. I always picture her as a young child. 2016 would make her a teen - 15 or 16, if my math is right. It's one thing to be strong for a toddler, a single-digits aged kid who will believe what you tell them, the Why It Must Be This Way, and the small lies that ease the Big Truth. It's another entirely to stare down an almost-adult and lead with denial because the mere prospect of existing in the truth is just too painful to bear. I don't know the circumstances. He is not one to open up even about easy things. Slowly, though, the layers are loosening. Some photos show him with a left-hand-third-finger adornment. It wasn't that long ago, and yet it was a lifetime ago.

Do i continue to throw myself and my money at him to buy his favor? Will it convince him to let me tell his story? Am i ready for all that entails, or is this just another manic fever dream that will break in the harsh light of my Ohio life? In NC, anything seems possible. Back here, "home," I'm less certain.

Eventually, it came: the request for my phone number, the follow up to a promise in an earlier message. a file sent, but not usable. iPhone to Android incompatibility, we decided, and I try an app to beat the file into compliance. No dice. Still eager to send me something, but insisting it's no big deal, "may email it sometime" comes across the chat and my inbox pings before i can digest the words. another layer revealed, in mp3 format.

I'm not used to being the one whose approval is sought. The follow-up. Follow-through? lobbing compliments like automatic fire, hoping quantity will blind him to the quality, deeply lacking, his Other of (Un)certain Significance able to out-articulate me in her sleep, razor-sharp wit cutting me down to size.

A firehose full of my sincerest thanks follows as well. For sharing. For trusting. For taking me at my word when I say I won't share with anyone until he gives the OK. The power I hold, but will not wield. I am on unfamiliar ground and sinking fast.

Always wanting to do right, the suggestion of NDAs pop up, but then dies on my tongue (fingertips?), worried I'm taking it all wrong. But if he does concede to me as biographer, NDAs will be inevitable. good thing I know an attorney in NC.

Today, an unanticipated message on a different platform: the upcoming show announcement as posted by the venue. no note, just his sharp visage in high contrast and a link to the post. I can't stop smiling at the thoughtfulness. my giddy reply confirms ticket bought and hotel booked, along with the unasked for details of where I'll be the night before. Rambling. A thousand words, easy, for the one picture. I'm collecting concerts like Pokemon now.

I've got the basic Wikipedia format typed out, and am filling in what little bits I can - band names, albums - and realize how little I truly know. Google won't tell me what I truly desire. Notes from chats with him and others, plus little gems and photos from Facebook clutter the document. I have until Valentine's Day to mold this into something that will make him proud, to encourage the full revelation of what's inside.

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